Back in the Hospital

Friends,
On Thursday I went to see the lung doctor and when she saw the difficulty I had breathing and knowing from the xray I had another pneumonia, she sent me to the hospital to be admitted. I was actually relieved because my breathing had become so difficult I worried I would have a crisis while home alone. In the ER they ultrasounded my lungs and saw that all the fluid was back already. Since them, more has accumulated and today after seeing a chest xray they ordered a CT scan. I have some very excellent lung doctors brain storming. While they want to remove the fluid, the bigger question is why does this keep happening? There can be several causes and it's not black and white. There may be multiple causes. I am having breathing treatments every six hours and they have helped the lungs not feel so tight. I cannot be off oxygen for more than a few minutes without a problem. They believe this is a result of the fluid issue. I am really tired. I was in a room with a woman who was calling for help every half hour the first night and got little sleep. I am now in a room by myself, at least for now. Last night I had five hours of consecutive sleep. It was wonderful. Now I have to wait for the doctors to decide what the best way to proceed is. They are talking about many things and I don't want to discuss them until I know something is set to happen. Some of this is scary. I just have to trust in them (and of course I rely on my prayers and meditation.) They think they have a few options and want to do only what they have to.
Many of you are on my Facebook too and follow updates there as well. In the real world I have lost a few friends this year. It's okay though because I know that I have many friends out there who love me and understand what the last two years have been like for me. I am still grieving the lost of my father and dread the upcoming Father's Day. My mother is very disturbed over what is happening to me and cries frequently. I only tell her what she needs to know.
I will keep you posted. Thank you for following my blog and checking in on me.