Happy Valentine's Day!

Today is Valentine's Day and I want to wish everyone a wonderful day. We can all find love in our lives if we look around. It doesn't have to be a significant other, it can be a beloved pet or friend. I am lucky to have Rob (we have been together twelve years) and friends and my beloved furbabies who all shower me with love. Friends can often disappoint us and I am trying to remind myself that most of my friends have never been sick. They are clueless to what I am going through/the battle of the past few years. I have tried to talk online with other people who have pulmonary hypertension. I have so much in common with them and they all struggle with friends who are also clueless when they are having a bad day. There really isn't anything anyone can do other than to be empathetic and understanding. One of the things that I don't like about Facebook is that people read your statuses and think they are following what is happening in your life. They throw a comment here and there and think that is what friendship is. Perhaps to some that is what it is but not to me. It's a good way to stay in touch with acquaintances but I don't think it can be a subsitute for a genuine friendship. The older I get the more I realize they are few and far between.
Today we acknowledge love and how sweet it is. I know what it is like to need someone and not have anyone, although I was married. Rob has filled so many voids in my life. He has been my everything the past few years. It's been a heavy burden for him to carry but he never complains. I wish I had the money to show up at his job with a brand new car for him. I wish I could do the most wonderful things for him but I am so limited. All I can do is show him what he means to me and try to take care of him the best I can.
Today I am going to treat myself to a pedicure. I'm not really supposed to have one but we won't tell the doctor. My toenails are a mess and it hurts me to try to do anything with them. Anytime I get in a position where I am compressing my lungs I get lightheaded and have been told I could pass out. Not cool. I need a mental health lift for myself. Where else can I get there for $20.00? A bargain I think. So today I will get a bright and cheery color (to combat the drab of winter without the ice sparkling.) I will think of those who have made me feel so loved and hope today they know how special they are.