And the beats go on.............

The past few days have been really tough for me. The more I do, the more pain I experience. I am not really supposed to be doing anything but when I am home alone I make myself toast or tea and even that hurts. Moving hurts.

I have so many things that I simply must take care of. My employer fired me and my health insurance ends August 31. I had to get onto my husband's at that time. That meant checking to see that all my doctors accept his insurance. Good news on that front: two that were out of network on my insurance will be IN network on his. Problem is I had met ALL my deductibles under my insurance and will now have to meet them on his. My income has ended and I am not eligible for unemployment. My short term disability is exhausted. Thankfully, I had inherited a few thousand dollars about a year ago and held onto it and am using that now to subsidize our bills. Thank God I didn't run out and do something extravagant with it.

My days are rather quiet here. I take a few cat naps throughout the day. During the day I try to take Tylenol only then the stronger pain med to sleep. Some nights I cannot get comfortable and just can't sleep. Yesterday I was laying in my recliner when it began to vibrate. My windows shook like a huge wind was coming. The cat stood up on the sofa like what is going on? I then felt the sofa which was also vibrating and I thought perhaps a jet had crashed. Put on the tv and quickly learned it had been an earthquake. Interesting. Things just get stranger and stranger.
I am supposed to get my staples out tomorrow. There are 31 and very irritating and have been in almost a month. I want them out but it will be painful because of the sensitive area they are in. I don't look forward to that part. On Friday a man is coming to put pull down stairs on my attic door. That way Rob can access the attic without all the ordeal of carrying a ladder upstairs etc. which is not safe anyway. This Christmas will be so much easier as we keep our prelit tree and all up there. I sense Fall in the area. It's always been my favorite season. So glad I will be here to enjoy it. The doctor said I am "resilient". Two time cancer survivor, two time open heart surgery survivor with two mechanical heart valves. Yes, I think that is the word for me. It will only get better from here. The future's so bright I gotta wear shades. :) My only goal for the future is to get my health back and I feel it coming.